Hate groups

One thing I hate about school is group project.

I seriously hate doing group projects. Some people are just a lot to handle. First of all, how hard is it to do your part? Second, how hard is it to turn your parts in time like others? third of all, how hard is it to listen and compromise.

Due date to email slides to every member is Sunday and now almost Tuesday. comeon. and they're in college? Some people are just not willing to take ideas from other people.

Is it really that hard to compromise and work together like a group of people. OR is it just human's nature to not work together?

Sorry to say this but some people are seriously STUPID. How can you add something fun (she said like games, quizzes and something to make our topic more interesting) when you're presenting a sensitive topic to your fellow classmates. Most classmate expressed that our topic is pretty interesting and one of my group member is doubting her own project. common..

It has been long

I decided to write today.

A lot has happened and I have no idea where to start.

I got a huge promotion. I am so happy for myself and the fact that they believe in me. However, I'm kinda scared that I cannot live up to the standard. But I know I have to try. What surprise me the most is that, they are willing to give me 6 months to try the position out and see if I like it. As they claim, they said that if I dont like it they will find another position for me. They make it sound so easy but its not and we all know it. They are trying to make me feel less scared. So nice and sweet of them. So in June, I will still be part time until July 1 to be full time. I want to ask them. So when I'm part time and full time does that mean my paycheck gonna go up and up..or its just gonna be the same as now.

The truth is, I care more about the pay check than the job it self. No, Dont get me wrong, I like the position and its gonna be very challenging but I need to watch my wallet and save as much money as possible for future plans.

They are so nice to me. I dont need to deal with HR and they all will take care of it for me. I feel extremely lucky. In the end, its all worth working here for 5 years. I dont really know my new supervisor and I hope hes nice. One day, I will visit him to introduce myself. I had a bad experience with a man supervisor back in 2003. He and I just dislike each other so much. Hopefully, this one not gonna be the same. But I know I have a lot of people at work to back me up.

I started working here July 5, 2004. I was still a young and naive girl. I was scared and my head was not as high as I am now. I was a little girl and now I am glad to say that I am a woman or maybe in between ^_^. Everyone here saw my change. They are so proud of me and I am too. They make me seem like I am so good at this and that but for some reason, I dont really see that in myself. Low self-esteem? I guess I still have some of that. I used to have no confident, low self-esteem, etc but now everything changed. Thankz to my mentor. She truly taught me a lot. Everyone at work are GREAT.

After graduation, its gonna be a whole new stage. I wonder when I'm gonna start working there but first we need to hire an intern and I get to interview and pick them. NICE!!!

After All

I havent been updating. I saw a friends blog and hes telling people to update. SO here I am.

Next week will be spring. I am so excited to not have school but I still have to study for exam. A lot of projects.

I am also excited and somewhat worry about this one thing happening. I still need to work a long time from now to see how it turn out.

Everything seems fine. I have a lot more responsibility at work. I am happy for that. Hmm..They are still discussing whether they will hire me and fit me into the City budget. hopefully but its okay. At least I still have this part time job.

For some reason, I have been spending. Not a lot but been spending. I want to stop spending and stop using money but hmm..kinda hard. It seems to me that I need a lot of stuff. Hahaha...Maybe its my nature.

Close friends will need to be apart

I don't have a lot of friends because I pick ppl to be my friends. Its not because they are not good enough for me, its just that, those people are not my type of friends. I don't want to be fake and pretend that I like them and/or want to be their friends. I just cant do it.

I have a several close friends. Some guys and some girls. It's also hard for me to find close friends. People who I can freely talk are usually my close friends. YES Danny, I consider you my close friend. People who you can trust. People who you can tell your situation/ problem and without asking, they for sure will reply or give you some kind of feedback. People who will for sure keep your secrets.

I think I am losing a few close friends. They recently moved out of SF for school. They got transfered. Well, its not really because of the transfer. when they were still here, we were already moving apart. They are all into partying, going out, drinking, etc. A total change of interest. Thats totally not me. I dont drink for the hell of it. I dont party or go out just because people ask/want me to go. I drink because I want to drink and enjoy the drink. I party because I want to be there with my friends and have fun with them. I go out because I need to enjoy my life outside of my house and I want to go out. So--> That was our opposite. WE moved apart. Stopped talking to each other. No more sharing life situations/problems. No more a lot of things.

The more they went out. The more friends they all got. All those friends replaced me. Oh well!

I dont really care because true friends will stick with me forever. Those who are not willing to keep in touch, call me to hang out, or IM me online are just not true friends. I am always online, its not hard to IM me. I also have unlimited text and they know it.

They planned a trip together. Amazing they still have so much money to go on a few day trip outside of the state. I dont have any extra money. In fact, I need some extra please. I have been knowing about this trip. HELLO FACEBOOK!! They finally asked whether I wanted to join them. I told them I dont have any extra to spend. I told them that it seems to me that they been planning it. They said yes, for about a month by now and that they didnt have the chance to ask me about it. YEA...

So here we go. I decided to move myself away from them. Like I said earlier, true friends will always stick with you. I dont want to sound desparate and I am not.

I dont need a whole lot of friends. I only need a couple or a few or several CLOSE and TRUE friends who I know will be there for me no matter what.

Today is Friday. THANK GOD its friday. I have been hating school a lot. Most of the time I'm just too lazy to do my hw and study.

These two last classes are my core classes and all you need is a D- to pass the class. That is stupid but its kinda good for students. I'm thinking to myself. I am so lazy, maybe I just get a D and pass the class and let it be. But its impossible for me to get a D. so no way. Maybe a C-. lolz. I will still try but just not as hard as I do in Fall semesters. OR maybe I'm lazy because this is my LAST and FINAL semester. WaHOO to me. I am still trying and still working hard, just just not as hard.

Seeing other seniors working so hard makes me feel bad.

Oh No

Oh NO!

I totally forgot I'm on my spring semester. Why am I so surprise? I tend to be super lazy in spring semester. I tend to work super hard in fall semester. For the last two weeks, I wondered by I am being so lazy. Today, Sunday, I just realized I'm on my spring semester. NO WONDER..It's weird but so TRUE. ah..ah..oh no..what am I going to do now. I need to push myself harder.

Just excited

I got all my grades. I am very happy with them because I got two unexpected good grades. I thought I was gonna get a C- or not pass but I got way better than a C-. Did professors turn GOOD? Overall, I got really good grades.

Work is boring. I like to be full time or at least more flexible. LIKE, let me work more during breaks but I cannot because I am required to work the hours I have. sucks. I want another part time job.

Boyfriend....NO comment. I know how to love him and at the same time, I truly know how to hate his guts. nothing went wrong. I am just saying it.

Family. one word, worries. Please let it pass as soon as possible.

School. I will be getting my classes on Thursday. Hopefully, I get the professor I want. ONLY four classes and I am so DONE!! I hope they are good and easy professor.

Life. kinda boring but kinda relaxing. I am done with my RPG game. It's kinda fun.

I think I am getting FAT!! People never believe me but I know my body better than anyone out there. I am getting FAT. o well....I'm too lazy. I'll let it burn its own fat...slowly..HAHAHA

I have been sleeping really late.

A cold day

Today is one cold day. I cannot remember the last time I was this cold. Its getting cold again. WHY! I kinda want it to rain.

How I feel today?

For some reason, I feel kinda lonely. I have no idea why. I went to play badminton with bf and his friends. No reasons to feel lonely right. My right arm is hurting so I didnt play much.

I hate it when couples act so close in front of their friends and calling each other names that I just cannot stand. you know, those couple names that only couples call each other. Not to be mean now but GET A ROOM. I sat in front of them and thats kinda not a good thing. Its really sweet that they're showing each other how much they love each other but please, show some respect to your friends and not show that to us. We dont need to see any action or hear anything.

I always feel unappreciated. I don't know why I always feel that way. It's an expectation. I am trying to stop having any kind of expectation for anything because its bad to have any. When you get what you want, of course you're happy BUT when you don't, that's when it sucks.

I am so straightforward about everything. I will tell you if I dont like something. I always try my best to understand the inner me. In fact, I think I understand it a little too much. I know what I want and I know what I like and dislike. That sounds like a good thing but at times, its bad. Things cannot always go the way I want it and when it doesnt, I get upset because I know what I want and dislike. AND thats bad... for example my bf, whenever I feel upset and mad or whatever I feel, I will for sure let him know. He dont see it as sharing and communicating, (I think) he may see it more like whinning and complaining. Eventually, he gets annoyed.

I am the kind of person that I need to share my bad feelings in order to feel better. I dont like that about myself. I really want to keep some of the stuff to myself but it is bad to keep it.

NEW YEAR resolution --> be less straightforward and try to stop sharing your feelings with others.

However, I still feel thankful for being who I am today. I know how to appreciate and I know how to be thankful. Although, I may complain or whin about this and that, I am still thankful. I am not prefect. I am only a human.

Happy New Year

2009 is a special year for my friends and I because most of us are graduating from college and moving on to a whole new stage of our life. =D some may move onto a master degree and others may work and maybe get marry. I may consider a master degree but I am not a school person so I must think deep into it. However, I will for sure work.

I feel happy and excited. However, the bad economy makes it a little hard to be excited. I was planning to go Hawaii for my graduation rather than walking on stage but now, no stage and no hawaii. Maybe a little mini trip or none at all. I'm a little disappointed but at the same time, I gotta do what I gotta do right? =) I will try my best!

I got three out of five grades. So far, I am very happy with them. It's what I expected. The last two grades, I am a little worry about them. I did not work as hard in these two classes than the other three. I hope for the best and if I dont do good or dont pass at all, its not a big deal, I can re-take or take something else to replace them. I just want to pass, haha, just give me a C- or whatever it takes to pass me. its expected.

NEW YEARS EVE. I had alot of fun. I planned to go watch fireworks but we ended up not doing that. In the beginning of the night, I got so upset with my bf but in the end, everything turned out just fine. I went to my bf's house and his friends came over to have a little party. The gfs and I had fun playing wii. I joined the bfs to take some shots (tequila) but soon, I joined the gfs with some wine...=D..by the end of the night..I felt nothing...

I am just waiting to add my last semester classes and hope I can get all of them. I better. I only need four more. However, if I dont pass one or two of those two classes, that will be five or maybe six. Still good.

My new year resolution:
1) work hard in school
2) save money..more money
3) learn to control self emotion (hehehe)
4) be more carefree
5) have a little fun here and there

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Interesting place to do project

So, I have my last class today (Thursday). Our final is pretty much a mini project of a group of two to three people. We were already in a group of six people in the beginning of the semester. So we kinda still in the same group just split in half. So as we were discussing our mini final project. Ben and Ryan suggested that we should go over to our school BAR to have a beer or two and discuss our project there. I was like.."Sure why not" haha..so we head there and there we were having a beer or two. I had only one large cup of beer while the rest of them had two. I need to drive so yea. anyways, it was more interesting as time went by. hehe..It was FUN!!!...what a interesting place to do a project. Ben and Ryan's face turned RED while Amy was totally fine. I on the other hand..had a little blush..haha..

Today is Monday. It's cold outside. I just want to stay home. I will be getting a new ARPG 2m..I cannot wait..

I have been a little upset lately due to some..some..something thats not new at all..

Wednesday will be my first final, then Thursday, one on Friday and need to turn in paper on Friday and thats ALL for me..I will be done with this FALL semester. I am a little worry about my last semester. What if I don't get the classes I want. I will be really mad.

Thankzgiving

Today is thankzgiving. Nothing much happened. It's kinda cold today. For that reason, I did not want to wake up. Got up around 11:45am..hehe..I know thats kinda late. No school, and no work..need to catch up you know. Breakfast. Room to watch movies and slept some more until 5:55pm. Got up and watch a little more TV and than dinner and in the end, more TV. Sounds kinda boring huh? its really relaxing. I feel sleepy again. I have this one essay, I need to turn in on friday and I still haven't started. so lazy.

So back to the "let him have more freedom" topic. My first post, people think that I am not giving my bf enough space/freedom just because I like to know where he is. So, I decided to change to be more carefree and it has been a little less than a week. The result is fine. Whenever he tells me that hes going out, I'm like "o..ok.." and when he ask me questions like "can I do that?" my answer is "do whatever you like/please" well..lately, he have been going out a lot. I feel fine with that..not a whole lot of feelings..not upset or anything..nothing... I guess I am doing a good job on trying to be more carefree.

Today, he went to cousins BBQ than his relative and now he called to tell me that hes going to sunset. I said "o..ok" after 5 minutes into the conversation, he asked "you're not gonna ask me where I'm going?" I said "whatever you like la" so there we go..Do I sound like I dont care or sound like I am giving him more freedom. For some reason, I think both of them are the same thing. I duno, maybe its just me.